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A Difficult Announcement


I started having some spotting a week ago. It was off and on and fairly light. I have had spotting with all of my pregnancies so I figured it was just like that. Friday it had increased a bit (though still not heavy and no pain) so I called my OB. They said they couldn’t see me (don’t get me started on that one). Saturday I went shopping with my 16-year-old but it was really weighing on my mind so my husband and I agreed I should go to the ER.
We discovered yesterday evening that I have a Missed Miscarriage. The baby passed away somewhere between 9 and 11 weeks (I am 13.5 weeks today) but my body hasn’t quite realized it. There are decisions to make about how to proceed and I won’t get into all of that.
Through this experience I have discovered the vast number of people I love who have silently suffered through miscarriage. Some were further along, like me, and had spilled the beans already. That makes it a bit tougher to be silent about. I was incredibly surprised to discover how many dear friends went through this. And like I had joined a very sad club, they started sharing their stories with me. It felt good to know I wasn’t alone, because initially that is a very lonely feeling. I have one friend who shares her stories of miscarriages as a part of who she is and where she is today. She certainly impresses me.
We don’t yet know where we stand going forward. We had not planned for this baby but had happily begun to welcome him/her. I need to take time to get my head straight and be with God first, then I will ask Him what is right for us.
I appreciate all of the thoughts and prayers that my dear friends and family are sending out.


Author: leangreenmommy

Hi, I'm Sonia! I'm the mom of 4 wonderful daughters and wife to one amazing man, trying to live a healthier life, care for the earth and just survive the day. When I'm not cooking up new recipes in the kitchen or shuttling kids to soccer, volleyball and lacrosse I run an in-home daycare and am a freelance writer.

4 thoughts on “A Difficult Announcement

  1. Sonia…I had a miscarriage between genevieve and Gabriel. I remember it like it was yesterday. I was at Donatos in Hilliard…we left immediately and went to the ER. I felt very alone and was scared. No one in my family had had one before so no one could relate to my pain. I was so scared when I got pregnant again. I spotted for the first 20 weeks and went every two weeks to see my doctor. I knew at that point I couldn’t be pregnant again. Mentally it was too much!
    I remember people telling me it was God’s way of taking babies that would be very sick…I didn’t care! God had taken my baby regardless. I didn’t want to hear all that…I was hurting and needed people to acknowledge that.
    I’m so sorry that you’ve miscarried. It I a wound that never goes away but gets better if you need anything. Please let me know!

  2. Sonia, please know that dad and I are praying for both you. May the comfort of The Lord and His Holy Spirit be what you need to get thru this. We love you!

  3. My heart goes out to you Sonia, to Thom and the girls. Sending prayers your way. Love, Liz Sauer

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